Dear Maddy,
It’s been about 6 months since we got our disneyland pass. Shoutout to the best yi-ma and yi-jeung who bought them for us this first year!! I remember the day that passes opened up. Me and eemo Sara were in the waiting line online all day debating if we should get passes. I didn’t know if It was going to be worth getting a pass with a 10 month old?! And your 아빠 was not easy to convince. At the end of the day, we did it. I bought the pass after you went down at 9pm, and I prayed that I wouldn’t regret it. Well, 6 months later, I’m far from regret and I’m so glad we bought the pass.
I know you won’t remember our early days we went to disney, so you’ll just remember what I show you in pictures, and that’s why I’m writing this. Some people told me it would be pointless to bring you to Disney because what’s the point if you don’t remember? But even if you don’t remember the exact memories, everything that happens is shaping you now to be who you’re meant to be. And you’ve always been my bright and curious girl and you LOVE it. Your eyes fill with wonder every time we walk into the parks, you say “hi” at the top of your lungs when you see every character and every moment, even if you don’t remember it, and even if it’s tiring, is so worth it.
When 엄마 was small, I didn’t like the characters haha. I was so scared of them! But man, your eyes widen and truly light up when you see Minnie and Mickey. My favorite thing is when you throw up both hands to wave and you yell as loud as you can “hiii.” It’s magical seeing your excitement and it brings smiles to those around us! The characters also love it when you blow them kisses and give them high fives. I love that one of your first CLEAR words was “minnie mouse” hahaha although you pronounce it like “mimee moush” and it’s the cutest thing. Ill be a little sad when you can say it clearly. We only go 2-3 hours each time, but Mondays are our days for Disney. When we first started going, you would be so excited until the moment we met them! Then you’d freeze and hold me tight but now you blow them non-stop kisses and even reach out for hugs.
You snack non-stop and you always eat your lunch so well. You love popping all the bubbles and you have your own bubble wand as well. Sometimes the loud noises and crowds makes you overwhelmed, so you’ll hold my hand tight or asked to be carried, but this is all part of growing up, so I don’t mind too much.
You are NOT a fan of the rides. And i’ll work on that after we get to go again after summer. I get it though, it’s loud and you don’t know what to expect. You liked it’s a small world the first several times, but we haven’t been on it in a while because we’re too busy chasing characters and watching the parades. I wonder if one day you’ll be a roller coaster junkie like your dad was, or if you’ll eventually come around to liking them like me. Maybe you’ll never like them? We’ll see 🙂
This isn’t a long letter, but it’s just one to say that I love going to disneyland with you. I tell you every time we go, but I really do look forward to these moments with you. They feel fleeting even though it’s right now. I want you to know that you and mommy had fun monday disneydates during this time. I love watching your wonder grow and even though it’s getting a little harder to navigate disney alone with you, it’s so worth it. I’m always in this in between of wanting you to grow faster so I can enjoy certain things with you more and wanting you to stop growing so I can enjoy baby you more. So while I know these dates won’t last forever, I’ll enjoy what we are privileged to have together. hehe I love you to infinity and beyond.
Love,
엄마 (Mommy)
